a dream

I have wonder this lonely street for year
Searching
Have been lay to waste,
By my god
Spear to the heart,
With venom
I have suffer through this wrath of fire
A virgin i am
have no know what love is
Till one dream
An angel kiss me
Her cherry lip
Her breast to my chest
We spread our hand
Descending from the sky
Her face
Pure like snow
With cherry blush on her check
We kiss
When twilight set
A dream i dreamed
Only to know
I will never fall in love
In this world
Never to feel
What i had feel in my dream

love chemical

love is a chemical recipe
only to guide me to hell nor heaven
with this twilight set
my chemical rome free
with a cupid bow
an arrow shall show me
the beauty to your heart
with your warm lips blush
my lip shall cover your shame
with your blushing face
drown me with chemical
till then love is only what i have

a cup

i have a cup
an empty loveless cup
with this bottle of gin
i shall drown my sorrow
with this cup
a taste of death begin
with this cup
shall be my lady
a fool i am
a death wish i wish
with this cup
i shall dance with corpes
with this last sip
my blood shall fill this cup

till then i sing to the blue moon

move

my heart beat like a machines
breathing poison 
fill my wound with rotten ash
while building a life
with stick and stone
this lady statue
only to heal my broken soul 
to continue my battle 
but this hell is only place 
where demon are my only friend 
as hope have been found
only to burn and suffer 
as i continue my journey
for a quest of love 
only to engage with the wrath of fire 
as black tears drop 
nothing could safe humanity 
only to be torn to peaces
and buried 
till the end my corpse will walk this lonely path

movies

life is like a movie directed by fools
drama,romance and action
what we are doing now
we are puppet hook to our master
our mind been washed with bleach
our love is just another happy ending story
only to serve our master
to fill their desire
to give an emotion to be played
to drink poison and lay waste
i'm just a puppet to the people
throw and abuse
scar,burns and torn apart 
my emotion have been ripped apart
but my smile will never faith
this hell will only continue
till my soul dance under the moon light once more

inner me

you can see me as a gentlemen 
i can act funny,cute,lovely
i can be retarded,stupid,lame
i can be anything you see 
nothing you will understand 
in side of me 
a boy trap and lock in a cage 
suffering 
a boy with a million cuts 
spear to the heart a thousand time 
nothing can change in side 
nothing will safe this sorrow 
nothing.............

why

day and night
i wonder how many of us here are in love and happy .

why people are so happy
why am i in the fucking corner
why cant you hear me
why cant you feel my heart beat
why couldn't you just let me go
why you want me to be here
im crying my heart out just ask you why
im useless,stupid,failure,hopeless and more
im a joke to society
im a loser
im just a nobody
why you want me
can you tell me that
im just fucking pointless peace of shit
a fucking joke and loser
and you want to me to be at your side
why........

i try so hard just ask you to let me go
and you just keep holding me
WHY..............wont you let me go
can you tell me